Alhamdulilah once I was able to trace it back, it was such a game changer because I was able to change the meaning I gave to that experience and anchor meanings that would be of benefit for me. I was able to say ‘that experience had nothing to do with me’ and I was able to acknowledge that the past experience was not an example of love or connection, and to consciously affirm that, without a doubt, it didn’t reflect or define who I am, or what I am worthy of. It changed so much for me and to know that it came directly from Him, humbled me to my core. This was from Him. After all these years I finally knew why I viewed love the way I did. Through this experience I came to truly acknowledge that I have absolutely no power nor any might except by Allah, and through that, learnt more about Allah at a deeper level than I did from any of the books I had studied. Alhamdulilah.